Sorry I forgot to post. I knew I would. I forgot this existed. Anyway, I totally forgot what that awesome and inspirational post was going to be. I can tell you this...it was inspired from the book entitled The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancy. So now I'm going to reread the book all over again just to make a small blog post. Because I think it's that important.
Moving on...remember livejournal? And also...Xanga? That was back in the day before social networking took over. And people actually wrote about their thoughts and feelings instead of politics and beliefs. While Twitter, Facebook, and MySpace are still cool, I think it was best when you could get on and see what your friends were up to and feeling at the time. I stumbled upon mine the other day and realized I'm still almost the exact same person I am now. While some...who I won't call out...think that's a bad thing, I love it. I think it's proof that you can be who you are without worrying what other people think. So what if I don't change the way I am to become popular or make new friends? I still have my old friends. I also have new friends that I didn't lie to get. Instead of putting on a show in front of other people, I can just be myself no matter who I'm around. I've gone through 4 years of college without paying for friends or basing the way I act off of who is popular. The thing I love about it is that I'm happy. I love it. I have no regrets.
I've seen a lot of changes in the past 5 years since I updated my livejournal almost daily. I graduated high school, moved away, and am now a year away from graduating college. One thing I'm proud of is that my heart hasn't changed. I've never wanted to be different. I've never wanted to fit in. I just wanted to be the person that I am. In a nutshell, I believe that's the meaning of life. Being an individual. Not being different just for the thrill of it. But being different because we all are. I'm not necessarily bashing frats and things of that nature, or condemning anyone at all. All I'm saying is that I've seen to many people waste their lives away trying to fit in. They might have 382 people they know but no real friends. No one that really cares if they live or die. Only in it for the social experience. I have 5 or 6 good friends that I would happily die for and I believe they would do the same for me. I am perfectly happy with that. Because I know that 24 hours a day and 7 days a week I can call them for help.
That came out of nowhere. I was just going to talk about how cool livejournal was. What I was going to say before that came out is that I'm going to make this blog more of like livejournals were back in the day. Instead of trying to throw out inspiration and my beliefs all the time, I'm sometimes just going to simply state how I feel. What's on my mind. Maybe that can be an inspiration in itself. Or if there's something completely random I feel like sharing, it's going up (see post before this). Going back and reading what was going on in my life 5 years ago was an inspiration to me. It let me know that I don't have to change who I am. I can still be Matt Barnes and make it through life being happy. Maybe 10 years down the road I'll come back and read this and inspire myself again.
Remember time capsules? Let's make one. Who's in? I want to throw in a pair of my jeans so we can laugh at them when JNCOs come back in style. Or even better...if wearing suits and bowler hats came back in style. Bonus: if JNCO jeans along with bowler hats and suspenders came back into style.
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